Naptime

You rest your head on my chest, one hand twisting my hair ’round and ’round your finger and the other holding onto your best stuffed friend. As I sing your lullaby, your eyelids and your body get heavier and heavier. I rest my cheek on your head, bury my nose in your hair, and selfishly wish I could stop the passage of time, stop you from growing up and away from me, stop you from hurtling toward independence.

I listen to the sound of your breathing, smile at your snoring, marvel at your peacefulness. I know I should put you in your bed, but I just want to savor the moment…just a bit longer.

You turn, and your forehead rests against my chin now. You’ve let go of your stuffed friend, but still hold tightly to my hair. I stroke your cheek, nuzzle your hair, pat your back. Your head moves up and down, up and down, with the motion of the rocking chair.

I know too soon you’ll not need Mama to rock you and sing to you, so I’m holding onto this moment with all my might.

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10 Responses to Naptime

  1. psumommy says:

    This is so weird…I *just* had this almost-exactly-the-same experience. Eric fell asleep on me and oh, that baby smell, and those baby sighs and sleepy baby noises…it makes me want to freeze time. Then I put him down (I know! What am I thinking?) and read this and you put so beautifully what I was just feeling. Now I want to go pick him up again.

    *deep, content sigh*

  2. Danielle says:

    This is beautifully described. It all aounds so peaceful too.

    What a nice moment to put into words and document for posterity.

  3. Lovely. I know just how you feel.

  4. LadyBug says:

    Thanks, kalki.

    That *deep, content sigh* pretty much sums up this post, psumommy. 🙂

    It was peaceful, Danielle, a nice contrast to the chaos that so regularly fills my life.

    Hello and welcome, Flannery Alden. And thank you.

  5. Found you through NaPoBloMo. I totally heart your blog! And this post got to me. I’m going to go smell my baby’s head now.

  6. Squirl says:

    Wow, that was so sweet. And so well written I could picture the entire thing vividly. Kiss Super Boy for me, okay?

  7. CircusKelli says:

    Oooohhhh… this is LOVELY, simply lovely. Some of my favorite memories of the kids are like that.

  8. amy says:

    So. Sweet. YOu can WRITE, girl.

  9. LadyBug says:

    Hello and welcome, Heather. And thanks for your sweet comment.

    With pleasure, Squirl.

    Thanks, CircusKelli. But, hey, wait. Aren’t you supposed to be resting?? Young Lady, GO to your ROOM! 🙂

    Awww, thanks, Amy.

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